I wake up with the sun beaming in my eyes
It’s a beautiful day and I’m feeling alright
Then I pick up my phone, say I’ll be up in five
But when I check again, an hour’s gone by
Why do I even try?
Gotta catch up now, I gotta catch my train
And don’t you dare forget to grab that spare change
I can’t afford to be late and lose my pay
But in my rush, I drop a $20 on the ground somewhere anyway
Why do I even try?
How much time have I wasted trying to not waste time?
I’m pinching pennies just to drop a dollar
Taking shortcuts just to lose it all
Counting out my wins and my losses
Just to prove that I’m worth my soul
We make plans to go out, decide on 8:00
Oh I’m stressing and nagging please don’t make us late, oh no
You say “it’s supposed to be fun, why are you acting this way?”
Before it’s even begun, I’ve ruined my own date
Why do I even try?
My ideal doesn’t strive
Not for love or for time
How much time have I wasted trying to not waste time?
I’m pinching pennies just to drop a dollar
Taking shortcuts just to lose it all
Counting out my wins and my losses
Just to prove that, I’m worth my soul
I don’t wanna be afraid anymore
I don’t wanna waste away anymore
I’ve learned to love just being with you
It doesn’t matter if we get where we’re going to
When we met we weren’t ready for what would unfold
Tellin’ you things I thought that I don’t think I’ve ever told
You kissed my lips under the streetlight, grabbed my hand to hold
Tellin’ me “baby, since you’re with me i won’t be alone”
But time makes short work of love
Got me contemplating how it was
Got me wondering…
How could this love be so lonely
How could this love be so lonely
Baby, but you say that you need me
So how come I’m feelin’ so lonely
When you call you take up all the time just talkin’ ’bout yourself
When we’re alone you say you want me through the liquor on your breath
How am I supposed to feel
When it doesn’t seem like you know me for real
How could this love be so lonely
(Baby, how could it be?)
How could this love be so lonely
(How could your love be lonely, baby, when you say…)
Baby, but you say that you need me
So how come I’m feeling so lonely
Zoetic:
Yeah, the idea of love just sounds so unrealistic
And I’ve been chasin’ it ’cause I thought happiness came with it
But truth be told as I get old I learned it ain’t intrinsic
And I knew good things do end, but I was hopin’ you’d be different
But I was wrong
My love is lonely, you can hear it all up in my songs
And you won’t listen when I talk and that’s messed up
And I’m dressed up from head-to-toe in embarrassment
Cause when you told me that you loved me, girl, that ain’t what you meant
You just love the way I make you feel when you feel alone
You just love the fact that when you call I’m quick to the phone
I deserve somebody that’s gon’ miss me when I am gone
You crave attention like a dog to a bone
Damn
You told me what you loved, but you left out yourself
You was fine china that I shoulda left on the shelf
You told me that you loved me more than anything else
Lies that hit under the belt
Zoetic, yeah
I don’t know what to do
I can’t keep on expecting things from you
I don’t know what to say
Besides I know we are not ok
How could this love be so lonely
How could this love be so lonely
Ya know you only call when you need me
Oh and it’s leaving me lonely
How could this love be so lonely
How could this love be so lonely
How could this love be so
Lonely
How could this love be so lonely
How could this love be so
The way things are, the way things were
They don’t agree and that’s where it hurts
Long lost songs from voices with empty lungs
Melodies so sweet, never to be sung
Youth stained love will fall away
The things we share no longer permeate
The old dreams that we held at night
That never seem to take flight
But Here and now
Is all life has to give
Dwelling on the past
Wont teach me how to live
I’ll never learn how to live
I praise the sky as I curse my own breath
A sojourner gasping for rest
But in the end
what will I hang on to
Here and now
Is all I’ll ever be
I’m breathing
But these fears of mine
Take a hold of me
They won’t let go
But here and now
Is all life has to give
Dwelling on the past
Won’t teach me how to live
Will I ever learn how to live
Mother, mother, it’s been a while,
But I’m coming home
Mother, mother, when I come home
I’m coming alone
And I’m aware that when you saw me last
You saw me clinging dearly to my past
But no more
Earth and seed, they marry
In the spring I watch them grow
But my heart drowns with the rain fall
When it breaks, it breaks slow
And I’m aware that these things take time
But I can’t get that man off my goddamned mind, oh!
I have been so lost and yet I wander still
With grace as my crutch, with song my lungs are filled, oh!
If circles and circles I run,
I will still be running home to you
And if miles and miles I come,
Take one look back and just see who I was
Egypt has held me long,
But Zion has held me longer
If you don’t think I will come
Just take one look back and see who I was
Hold me by the sea
Tangled in the spirit of the Japanese
The specific use of pacific blues
Mixed with red and golden hues
I always knew I’d find you here
I never knew how long it’d take
But here we are together now
Bound by nothin’ but fate
Been dodgin’ bullets all my life
Still I couldn’t keep a wife
Let me tell you how I loved her, darling,
Let me tell you how I tried
But the times will change and so will we
Grace of God please cover me
Mountains, ocean, land and sea
I only knew her about 6 weeks
Before I asked her to marry me
Then I watched her walk right out that door
But I’m not angry anymore
The past is in the past my love
I’m only lookin fo’ward
Take it slow around these turns
We don’t need your brakes to burn
Don’t be stupid, you can wait
Take the time you need to take
You’ve got so long
Been dodging bullets all my life
Couldn’t keep a goddamned wife
Let me tell you how I loved her, darling,
Let me tell you how I tried
But the times will change and so will we
Grace of God please cover me
The men I’ve killed can’t forgive me
My friends, my friends where have they gone
Off into the great beyond
Without me
Follow the ocean, follow the sea
Follow the ocean, and come to me
Follow the ocean, follow the sea
Follow the ocean, don’t keep your love from me
Follow the ocean, follow the sea
Follow the ocean, and come to me
When we met we weren’t ready for what would unfold
Telling you things I’ve thought that I don’t think I’ve ever told
You kissed my lips under the streetlights and grabbed my hand to hold
Tellin’ me “baby since you’re with me i won’t be alone”
But time makes short work of love
Got me contemplating how it was
Got me wondering…
How could this love be so lonely
How could this love be so lonely
Baby but you say that you need me
So how come I’m feeling so lonely
When you call me you take up the time just talking about yourself
When we’re alone you say you want me through the liquor on your breath
How am I supposed to feel
When it doesn’t seem like you know me for real
How could this love be so lonely
How could this love be so lonely
Baby but you say that you need me
So How come I’m feeling so lonely
I don’t know what to do
I can’t keep on expecting things from you
I don’t know what to say
Besides we are not ok
How could this love be so lonely
How could this love be so lonely
Ya know you only call when you need me
And it’s leaving me lonely
Time is moving faster everyday
And scientifically it will stay that way
But I will make the most that I can
Out of these moments here you’re holding my hand
Time is never on my side
My memories slip out of my mind
But I never have to wonder my life’s worth
Cause you prove that I became something after birth
When I look back at my life I can say
That every moment with you out of every day
Meant more than dust and empty breaths just seeping out of my chest
Our treasures here will never fade away
There is an anxiety consuming the dreams placed inside of me
I’ve never truly learned how to turn away
But the beauty here surrounding me awakens a security
That those deep brown eyes will cherish all my days
When I look back at my life I can say
That every moment with you out of every day
Meant more than dust and empty breaths just seeping out of my chest
Our treasures here will never fade away
Golden streams of little things you know they mean so much to me
Lady Time will never make us pay
For all the tears and silly fears you’ve wiped them all away my dear
From now until the years that we turn grey
After all this time you still look at me this way
Now I wonder why I wondered if you’d stay
I thought I was climbing this mountain right
But now I’m rolling down the other side
My body is an anchor as my fears take flight
I never thought you’d love me, I guess I was right
Over and over I’ve walked this hike
But you stand at the top and look at me like
Once I reach your level you’ll push me back down
But still I have hope for tomorrow when I hit the ground
This mountain’s height towers far above
It will eclipse my heart and hide the one I love
My eyes are bound to you my mourning dove
But you turn me away when push comes to shove
Yesterday I missed you, so I called your phone
But quickly I deciphered that no one was home
Now it’s been a week, I guess you’re still gone
I never knew somebody could “lose their phone” for so long
This mountain’s hight towers far above
But you turn me away when push comes to shove
Now I can see that you’re no good for me
Let down after let down, you’ve blurred my sight
But now I’ve found my mountain and I’ve claimed this height
I was told that if I said
The right words that are in my head
I would be held and home
Never to let go
But the words I find are undefined
I don’t know how to make them mine
If only I could write my own
Reach inside my soul
The songs I write are out of time
My tongue has fallen out of line
I knit my thoughts into a broken cloth
Never to be sold
To think to feel is what makes us real
But to share in words is the letters seal
I don’t belong in this open book
Forever I am closed
Now I have
spoken words that are not mine
I’ve taken the mind to take and take time
But one day soon I will make myself home
In the light of the love that I’ve found and I’ve grown
Oh love of my life this light I have know
Love of this light shows the way home
A broken bottle shatters
And my lungs, they can relate
My breathing falls to pieces
Under sore and sobbing weight
I’ve tried to put the knife down
Please believe me when I say
But my skin is slipping at the stitches
My knees are starting to give way
I am made of fragile substance
Nests of wasps and flowers hung
So be gentle when you hold me
‘Tween life and lover I am strung
The lust of life consumes me
Every moment every breath
These marble mountains grow upon me
On my arms and in my chest
The phrase “I don’t owe you anything”
Dances in my head
I am made of fragile substance
Nests of wasps and flowers hung
So be gentle when you hold me
‘Tween life and lover I am strung
I am made of fragile substance
A tattered spirit broken song
So be careful when you touch me
‘Tween life and lover I am strung
And I never meant to hurt you
I only meant to care
But when neither life or love believes you
Every thought becomes a prayer
And I’m afraid a fear of living
Is a life or death affair
