I don’t wanna be seen
I wanna be safe
I’m losing my mind
But you can’t relate

Iit’s wearing me thin
I can’t keep my cool
Not proud of myself
Everyone’s fool

And maybe this is what they mean
When they cry “crazy fucking woman”
Maybe this is what the mean when they say “woman”

Before I was a woman
I never knew the pain
I never knew the struggle
I never knew the shame

But I’m tired of being scared
Of being angry
Carrying the weight
It gets so heavy

And maybe this is what they mean
When they cry “crazy fucking woman”
Maybe this is what they say when they mean a woman

And I never wanted to be this way
But who will keep me safe?

Who will keep me safe?

I’ll tell you something ’bout me
I’m not gonna go where I don’t wanna be
I’ll tell you what I’m gonna do
I’m gonna sit here and be with you

I’ll show you what you can’t see
When you’re overwhelmed by reality
I’ll remind you what’s true
When the lies you hear go running loose

When you’re up (When you’re up)
When you’re down (When you’re down)
When your world
Is spinning the wrong way round (wrong way round)

This is what I’ll do
When I say I’ll love you
This is what I’ll do
When I say I’ll love you

If you’re up all night
I will shield you from the morning light
And If you sleep all day
I’ll lie with you ’til you’re ok

You can be yourself
There’s no curtain to fall, no cards to be dealt
You don’t need to pretend
I will give you space, I’ll be your friend

When you’re up (When you’re up)
When you’re down (When you’re down)
When your world
Is spinning the wrong way round (wrong way round)

This is what I’ll do
When I say I’ll love you
This is what I’ll do
When I say I’ll love you

When your world is spinning around
I’ll be your ground
Holding you down
When your world is spinning around
I’ll be your ground
Holding you

When you’re up (When you’re up)
When you’re down (When you’re down)
When your world
Is spinning the wrong way round (wrong way round)

I woke up this morning
Needing to know if you’re alive
I keep having dreams about us
The acid uncertainty of you and I

You make me feel so proud of myself
I don’t think you understand
I’ve never felt more real than when
You said you wanna hold my hand

You see, you talk to me about chemistry
And I make sure to look like I’m listening
But I love you I love you I love you
is the only thing that I’m whispering

Praying hard that you don’t hear me
Praying harder that you do
Oh please oh please don’t tell me
That she’s your someone new

My eyes sting from the ash
Left behind by your destruction
But the thing is, I was the bomb
That shook you down to your foundation

I look you in the eyes
Stained glass windows shattered into shards
This love used to be a home
Before it was a scattered house of cards

They remind me of the sky, your eyes
Right before it starts to break
They remind me of the day
When we left it up to fate

You said to look at me was fire
To be without me was to freeze
It’s hard to know if you love someone
When your arms are growing weak, please

I think I’d give almost anything
To wake up next to you again
Your warm hands on my cold shoulders
The sweetest way I know to begin

But the truth is you are leaving
Leaving behind a version of yourself
For me to hold and to remember
And finally, to put onto a shelf

I don’t know if it was worth it
Mistakes are things you should regret
But I know I’ll always remember
The day you chose to forget

Big sky, big clouds or are they mountains
Taller than I’ve ever seen
Your voice so warm and alive
Through the window without a screen

Milky Way galaxies
Of dust in the sun
Feeling pressure to move on
Never knowing what went wrong

The glacier shapes the mountain
The rainfall shifts the river
The wind cuts the boulder
But this thought cuts me quicker

In what ways do we change like landscapes
Slowly, over time
Until who I see inside me,
I no longer recognize

Brief touch, quick kiss on the lips
Come on, let’s go for a ride
You joke, I laugh, you smile,
turn away before I sigh

Longing for a feeling deeper
than your hands on my skin
Wondering will we ever get back to
Do you remember when

The glacier shapes the mountain
The rainfall shifts the river
The wind cuts the boulder
But this thought cuts me quicker

In what ways do we change like landscapes
Slowly, over time
Until who you see inside me,
You no longer recognize

Loneliness shifts the spirit
Grief shapes the soul
Loss adjusts your vision
And heartache cuts through bone

In what ways do we change like landscapes
Slowly, over time
And in what ways does it all come crashing
To bury me alive

God I know you wanna see me
I wanna see you too
God I know they’re so against me
But I can’t help the way I feel about you

I just want some peace of mind
That when you hold me tight
That’s right where I belong

I have always been the one to throw it all away
But I don’t want it to be another one of those days
And I
I just want you to make me feel okay

I just want some peace of mind
That when you hold me tight
That’s right where I belong

Oh and I am only human
I’m afraid to let you go
I would never want to lose this
Please oh please just let me know

Cause I just want some peace of mind
That when you hold me tight
That’s right where I belong

Two trees standing together
Two trees close but apart
Two trees braving the weather
From the storms that brew in the heart

I know
That the love we grow
Didn’t come from a seed
Or the swaying of the breeze
But where we plant our roots

Two bees buzzin’ together
They work hard ’til the end of the day
But at night they lay close together
And make sweet of the honey they made

And I know
That the life we chose
Didn’t start with the flowers
Or the April showers
But where we lay to rest

Two seas wave at eachother
Shifting tides with the change of the day
But part of one always stays with the other
Until the moment the sun fades away

And I know
When my heart beats slow
It’s you
It’s always been you
Us we two

Glory, glory wasn’t made for me
A sailor taken from the sea
Wasn’t made for me

A solider wandering aimlessly
Knight with no avenging creed
Wasn’t made for me

I’m not who I thought I’d be
Nightingale, no song to sing

Glory, glory wasn’t made for me
calling through the dark, you see
It wasn’t made for me

Trumpet splits the sky and sea
Halo cast irradiantly
It wasn’t made for me

I’m not who I thought I’d be
Name left out of history

Honestly, was love even made for me?
Strange soul-shifting mystery
Wasn’t made for me

Passionate love affair
Intimacy that we share
Wasn’t made for me

This isn’t what I thought it’d be
Is pain simply destiny?

I wake up with the sun beaming in my eyes
It’s a beautiful day and I’m feeling alright
Then I pick up my phone, say I’ll be up in five
But when I check again, an hour’s gone by

Why do I even try?

Gotta catch up now, I gotta catch my train
And don’t you dare forget to grab that spare change
I can’t afford to be late and lose my pay
But in my rush, I drop a $20 on the ground somewhere anyway

Why do I even try?

How much time have I wasted trying to not waste time?
I’m pinching pennies just to drop a dollar
Taking shortcuts just to lose it all
Counting out my wins and my losses
Just to prove that I’m worth my soul

We make plans to go out, decide on 8:00pm
Oh I’m stressing and nagging please don’t make us late, oh no
You say “it’s supposed to be fun, why are you acting this way?”
Before it’s even begun, I’ve ruined my own date

Why do I even try?
My ideal doesn’t strive
Not for love or for time

How much time have I wasted trying to not waste time?
I’m pinching pennies just to drop a dollar
Taking shortcuts just to lose it all
Counting out my wins and my losses
Just to prove that, I’m worth my soul

I don’t wanna be afraid anymore
I don’t wanna waste away anymore

I’ve learned to love just being with you
It doesn’t matter if we get where we’re going to

When we met we weren’t ready for what would unfold
Tellin’ you things I thought that I don’t think I’ve ever told
You kissed my lips under the streetlight, grabbed my hand to hold
Tellin’ me “baby, since you’re with me i won’t be alone”

But time makes short work of love
Got me contemplating how it was
Got me wondering…

How could this love be so lonely
How could this love be so lonely
Baby, but you say that you need me
So how come I’m feelin’ so lonely

When you call you take up all the time just talkin’ ’bout yourself
When we’re alone you say you want me through the liquor on your breath

How am I supposed to feel
When it doesn’t seem like you know me for real

How could this love be so lonely
(Baby, how could it be?)
How could this love be so lonely
(How could your love be lonely, baby, when you say…)
Baby, but you say that you need me
So how come I’m feeling so lonely

Zoetic:
Yeah, the idea of love just sounds so unrealistic
And I’ve been chasin’ it ’cause I thought happiness came with it
But truth be told as I get old I learned it ain’t intrinsic
And I knew good things do end, but I was hopin’ you’d be different
But I was wrong
My love is lonely, you can hear it all up in my songs
And you won’t listen when I talk and that’s messed up
And I’m dressed up from head-to-toe in embarrassment
Cause when you told me that you loved me, girl, that ain’t what you meant
You just love the way I make you feel when you feel alone
You just love the fact that when you call I’m quick to the phone
I deserve somebody that’s gon’ miss me when I am gone
You crave attention like a dog to a bone
Damn
You told me what you loved, but you left out yourself
You was fine china that I shoulda left on the shelf
You told me that you loved me more than anything else
Lies that hit under the belt
Zoetic, yeah

I don’t know what to do
I can’t keep on expecting things from you
I don’t know what to say
Besides I know we are not ok

How could this love be so lonely
How could this love be so lonely
Ya know you only call when you need me
Oh and it’s leaving me lonely

How could this love be so lonely
How could this love be so lonely
How could this love be so
Lonely
How could this love be so lonely

How could this love be so

The way things are, the way things were
They don’t agree and that’s where it hurts
Long lost songs from voices with empty lungs
Melodies so sweet, never to be sung

Youth stained love will fall away
The things we share no longer permeate
The old dreams that we held at night
That never seem to take flight

But Here and now
Is all life has to give
Dwelling on the past
Wont teach me how to live
I’ll never learn how to live

I praise the sky as I curse my own breath
A sojourner gasping for rest
But in the end
what will I hang on to

Here and now
Is all I’ll ever be
I’m breathing

But these fears of mine
Take a hold of me
They won’t let go

But here and now
Is all life has to give
Dwelling on the past
Won’t teach me how to live

Will I ever learn how to live