This Mountain

I thought I was climbing this mountain right
But now I’m rolling down the other side
My body is an anchor as my fears take flight
I never thought you’d love me, I guess I was right 

Over and over I’ve walked this hike
But you stand at the top and look at me like
Once I reach your level you’ll push me back down
But still I have hope for tomorrow when I hit the ground 

This mountain’s height towers far above 
It will eclipse my heart and hide the one I love
My eyes are bound to you my mourning dove
But you turn me away when push comes to shove 

Yesterday I missed you, so I called your phone
But quickly I deciphered that no one was home 
Now it’s been a week, I guess you’re still gone
I never knew somebody could “lose their phone” for so long

This mountain’s hight towers far above
But you turn me away when push comes to shove

Now I can see that you’re no good for me

Let down after let down, you’ve blurred my sight
But now I’ve found my mountain and I’ve claimed this height

Versus Verses

I was told that if I said
The right words that are in my head
I would be held and home
Never to let go 

But the words I find are undefined
I don’t know how to make them mine
If only I could write my own
Reach inside my soul

The songs I write are out of time
My tongue has fallen out of line
I knit my thoughts into a broken cloth
Never to be sold

To think to feel is what makes us real
But to share in words is the letters seal
I don’t belong in this open book 
Forever I am closed

Now I have 
spoken words that are not mine
I’ve taken the mind to take and take time
But one day soon I will make myself home
In the light of the love that I’ve found and I’ve grown
Oh love of my life this light I have know
Love of this light shows the way home

Life or Death Affair

A broken bottle shatters
And my lungs, they can relate
My breathing falls to pieces
Under sore and sobbing weight

I’ve tried to put the knife down 
Please believe me when I say
But my skin is slipping at the stitches
My knees are starting to give way

I am made of fragile substance 
Nests of wasps and flowers hung
So be gentle when you hold me
‘Tween life and lover I am strung

The lust of life consumes me
Every moment every breath
These marble mountains grow upon me
On my arms and in my chest
The phrase “I don’t owe you anything”
Dances in my head

I am made of fragile substance 
Nests of wasps and flowers hung
So be gentle when you hold me
‘Tween life and lover I am strung 

I am made of fragile substance 
A tattered spirit broken song
So be careful when you touch me
‘Tween life and lover I am strung

And I never meant to hurt you
I only meant to care
But when neither life or love believes you
Every thought becomes a prayer

And I’m afraid a fear of living
Is a life or death affair

Time

Time is moving faster everyday
And scientifically it will stay that way
But I will make the most that I can
Out of these moments here you’re holding my hand

Time is never on my side
My memories slip out of my mind
But I never have to wonder my life’s worth
Cause you prove that I became something after birth

When I look back at my life I can say
That every moment with you out of every day
Meant more than dust and empty breaths just seeping out of my chest
Our treasures here will never fade away

There is an anxiety consuming the dreams placed inside of me
I’ve never truly learned how to turn away
But the beauty here surrounding me awakens a security
That those deep brown eyes will cherish all my days

When I look back at my life I can say
That every moment with you out of every day
Meant more than dust and empty breaths just seeping out of my chest
Our treasures here will never fade away

Golden streams of little things you know they mean so much to me
Lady Time will never make us pay
For all the tears and silly fears you’ve wiped them all away my dear
From now until the years that we turn grey

After all this time you still look at me this way
Now I wonder why I wondered if you’d stay

My Little Adventurer

I have never seen 
hands that hold so gently 
Features doused in light
My eyes catch fire when lips collide 

The safety of your smile is a song 
That I wouldn’t mind spending my whole life singing along to
And those doe eyes never say goodbye
Cause in my mind these stars are just now starting to fill my sky

Oh, my little adventurer
Won’t you come home and dance with me 
Share your thoughts and your secrecy
Oh, my little adventurer

Your soft brown hair only makes me stare sometimes
Your hands they fold perfectly when they’re in mine
You give me gifts and treasures
That I will hold in my heart forever

Oh, my little adventurer
Won’t you settle down and lie with me 
Share your thoughts and your secrecy
Oh, my little adventurer

When you left to move to the coastline
You left a gaping hole on my insides
I’m sure in a little while I’ll be alright
But right now I’m facing the realities of life

Oh, my little adventurer
Won’t you come home and sit with me
Drink this tea, oh I’m so lonely
Oh, my little adventurer

Hollow Bones

You started out a solemn soul
Eyes of sterling and wings of gold
Hollow bones filled with hope
Help to take you where you want to go

So you packed up all your things and went
But weight accompanies time well spent
The hollow spaces you once knew
Became heavy as you grew and grew

A burden it is to travel light
Not on the body, but on the mind 
Let it down every once in a while
Come back home after mile after mile

Fill your books with 
Pressed plants and poetry
Empty your heart of the things that you’ve seen 

But don’t let me keep you
I know you have soaring to do
Just please don’t let go of me
Through all of the things that you see
I always knew you would leave
Right now I’m just trying to find peace
Just promise you will stay true
But do not let me keep you

Just promise you will return 
And tell of all the things you’ve learned 
But don’t let me keep you
I don’t know what I’ll do

Holiday

The chilling of the breeze on a holiday
Sanctuary comes as a labor of love
Taking in a breath, I feel a mile away
But as the moments come you are always enough

The comfort of a friend when I’m feeling grey
Happiness will come through the labors of love
Leisure feels like waste when there’s so much at stake
The feeling tells me lies of what I’m capable of

But healing comes
In the shape of how we’re loved
And healing comes
By way of how we love

Since the fever of my youth and in my searching for
I have been enticed by the feeling of love
A whisper, then a scream, I hear my heart call out
Begging for sign, a word, from someone above

The poisons of my pride ask me to run and hide
Shadows start to play when I step out of love
Be tender, draw me near, something hurts inside
I’m trying not to fear the idea of love

But healing comes
In the shape of how we’re loved
And healing comes
By way of how we let ourselves love

Wonder

The way the moon the sings when dusk turns into evening
The way the tide moves when it will rise and fall to meet me
The way that blue looks, the way we try to pin it down
The way the stars seem to always turn us inside out

And I wonder how any of these things
Led up to me

The way the sky bleeds when water becomes too much to bear
The way that night seems to always touch us where we scar
The way mountains kneel at the oceans feet
The way that I know without a doubt that you love me

And I wonder how any of these things
Led up to me
I wonder how any of these things
Could be
And I wonder how among all of these things
I am me

Before

I never knew how to say this
I never really knew what to do
But now I think I’ve finally found the answer
And now I think I know the answers you

And I can feel it on the tips of my fingers
Now I know I’m free

Before I met you I was stuck in midnight
A streak of starlight caught in a blur
But now I see you and time stands still
And now I’m tryna tell you how I feel

Cause you are in the tips of my fingers
All I touch is new

It’s hard to believe what you can’t see
It makes you question your sanity
But in my eyes there is nothing more true
I wanna spend all my days on you

I’ve never laughed this hard before
I’ve never sang this loud before
Since I found you at my door
I’ve never danced like this before

I’ve never smiled this bright before
I’ve never felt this light before
All I can say is I want more
I’ve never felt this joy before

All I can say is I want more
I’ve never felt this joy before

Something Along the Lines Of

You were young
And yet you clung
To the cracks in the concrete of the past
Forced out of home
Roots ripped from places welcome
Your petals fell from around your neck

You rushed to gather them
But instead just scattered them
Deeper into the corners of the universe
Your name was thus written
On every planet and rock in space
But was nowhere on your heart

You’re something along the lines of
You don’t quite know what you’re made of

Insecurity will consume
Every crack every room
Unoccupied by sterling confidence
So practice shouting your name
And begin to claim
The parts of you left undiscovered

Hold tight to who you are
Because you never know
Who you’ll turn out to be
Tomorrow

You’re something along the lines of
You don’t quite know what you’re made of

That throbbing thing
At your core
Are words that you’ve never even heard before
But once you see
Yourself in love
You’ll understand what bones are made of

We’re something along the lines of
This time we know what we’re made of

We’re something along the lines of
This time we know what we’re made of