Psalm 39

The way things are, the way things were
They don’t agree and that’s where it hurts
Long lost songs from voices with empty lungs
Melodies so sweet, never to be sung

Youth stained love will fall away
The things we share no longer permeate
The old dreams that we held at night
That never seem to take flight

But Here and now
Is all life has to give
Dwelling on the past
Wont teach me how to live
I’ll never learn how to live

I praise the sky as I curse my own breath
A sojourner gasping for rest
But in the end
what will I hang on to

Here and now
Is all I’ll ever be
I’m breathing

But these fears of mine
Take a hold of me
They won’t let go

But here and now
Is all life has to give
Dwelling on the past
Won’t teach me how to live

Will I ever learn how to live

Egypt to Zion

Mother, mother, it’s been a while,
But I’m coming home
Mother, mother, when I come home
I’m coming alone

And I’m aware that when you saw me last
You saw me clinging dearly to my past
But no more

Earth and seed, they marry
In the spring I watch them grow
But my heart drowns with the rain fall
When it breaks, it breaks slow

And I’m aware that these things take time
But I can’t get that man off my goddamned mind, oh!
I have been so lost and yet I wander still
With grace as my crutch, with song my lungs are filled, oh!

If circles and circles I run,
I will still be running home to you
And if miles and miles I come,
Take one look back and just see who I was
Egypt has held me long,
But Zion has held me longer
If you don’t think I will come
Just take one look back and see who I was

1957 (Grandpa Song)

Hold me by the sea
Tangled in the spirit of the Japanese
The specific use of pacific blues
Mixed with red and golden hues

I always knew I’d find you here
I never knew how long it’d take
But here we are together now
Bound by nothin’ but fate

Been dodgin’ bullets all my life
Still I couldn’t keep a wife
Let me tell you how I loved her, darling,
Let me tell you how I tried

But the times will change and so will we
Grace of God please cover me
Mountains, ocean, land and sea

I only knew her about 6 weeks
Before I asked her to marry me
Then I watched her walk right out that door
But I’m not angry anymore
The past is in the past my love
I’m only lookin fo’ward

Take it slow around these turns
We don’t need your brakes to burn
Don’t be stupid, you can wait
Take the time you need to take
You’ve got so long

Been dodging bullets all my life
Couldn’t keep a goddamned wife
Let me tell you how I loved her, darling,
Let me tell you how I tried

But the times will change and so will we
Grace of God please cover me
The men I’ve killed can’t forgive me

My friends, my friends where have they gone
Off into the great beyond
Without me

Follow the ocean, follow the sea
Follow the ocean, and come to me
Follow the ocean, follow the sea
Follow the ocean, don’t take your love from me
Follow the ocean, follow the sea
Follow the ocean, and come to me

How Could This Love Be So

When we met we weren’t ready for what would unfold
Telling you things I’ve thought that I don’t think I’ve ever told
You kissed my lips under the streetlights and grabbed my hand to hold
Tellin’ me “baby since you’re with me i won’t be alone”

But time makes short work of love
Got me contemplating how it was
Got me wondering…

How could this love be so lonely
How could this love be so lonely
Baby but you say that you need me
So how come I’m feeling so lonely

When you call me you take up the time just talking about yourself
When we’re alone you say you want me through the liquor on your breath

How am I supposed to feel
When it doesn’t seem like you know me for real

How could this love be so lonely
How could this love be so lonely
Baby but you say that you need me
So How come I’m feeling so lonely

I don’t know what to do
I can’t keep on expecting things from you
I don’t know what to say
Besides we are not ok

How could this love be so lonely
How could this love be so lonely
Ya know you only call when you need me
And it’s leaving me lonely

This Mountain

I thought I was climbing this mountain right
But now I’m rolling down the other side
My body is an anchor as my fears take flight
I never thought you’d love me, I guess I was right 

Over and over I’ve walked this hike
But you stand at the top and look at me like
Once I reach your level you’ll push me back down
But still I have hope for tomorrow when I hit the ground 

This mountain’s height towers far above 
It will eclipse my heart and hide the one I love
My eyes are bound to you my mourning dove
But you turn me away when push comes to shove 

Yesterday I missed you, so I called your phone
But quickly I deciphered that no one was home 
Now it’s been a week, I guess you’re still gone
I never knew somebody could “lose their phone” for so long

This mountain’s hight towers far above
But you turn me away when push comes to shove

Now I can see that you’re no good for me

Let down after let down, you’ve blurred my sight
But now I’ve found my mountain and I’ve claimed this height

Versus Verses

I was told that if I said
The right words that are in my head
I would be held and home
Never to let go 

But the words I find are undefined
I don’t know how to make them mine
If only I could write my own
Reach inside my soul

The songs I write are out of time
My tongue has fallen out of line
I knit my thoughts into a broken cloth
Never to be sold

To think to feel is what makes us real
But to share in words is the letters seal
I don’t belong in this open book 
Forever I am closed

Now I have 
spoken words that are not mine
I’ve taken the mind to take and take time
But one day soon I will make myself home
In the light of the love that I’ve found and I’ve grown
Oh love of my life this light I have know
Love of this light shows the way home

Life or Death Affair

A broken bottle shatters
And my lungs, they can relate
My breathing falls to pieces
Under sore and sobbing weight

I’ve tried to put the knife down 
Please believe me when I say
But my skin is slipping at the stitches
My knees are starting to give way

I am made of fragile substance 
Nests of wasps and flowers hung
So be gentle when you hold me
‘Tween life and lover I am strung

The lust of life consumes me
Every moment every breath
These marble mountains grow upon me
On my arms and in my chest
The phrase “I don’t owe you anything”
Dances in my head

I am made of fragile substance 
Nests of wasps and flowers hung
So be gentle when you hold me
‘Tween life and lover I am strung 

I am made of fragile substance 
A tattered spirit broken song
So be careful when you touch me
‘Tween life and lover I am strung

And I never meant to hurt you
I only meant to care
But when neither life or love believes you
Every thought becomes a prayer

And I’m afraid a fear of living
Is a life or death affair

Time

Time is moving faster everyday
And scientifically it will stay that way
But I will make the most that I can
Out of these moments here you’re holding my hand

Time is never on my side
My memories slip out of my mind
But I never have to wonder my life’s worth
Cause you prove that I became something after birth

When I look back at my life I can say
That every moment with you out of every day
Meant more than dust and empty breaths just seeping out of my chest
Our treasures here will never fade away

There is an anxiety consuming the dreams placed inside of me
I’ve never truly learned how to turn away
But the beauty here surrounding me awakens a security
That those deep brown eyes will cherish all my days

When I look back at my life I can say
That every moment with you out of every day
Meant more than dust and empty breaths just seeping out of my chest
Our treasures here will never fade away

Golden streams of little things you know they mean so much to me
Lady Time will never make us pay
For all the tears and silly fears you’ve wiped them all away my dear
From now until the years that we turn grey

After all this time you still look at me this way
Now I wonder why I wondered if you’d stay

My Little Adventurer

I have never seen 
hands that hold so gently 
Features doused in light
My eyes catch fire when lips collide 

The safety of your smile is a song 
That I wouldn’t mind spending my whole life singing along to
And those doe eyes never say goodbye
Cause in my mind these stars are just now starting to fill my sky

Oh, my little adventurer
Won’t you come home and dance with me 
Share your thoughts and your secrecy
Oh, my little adventurer

Your soft brown hair only makes me stare sometimes
Your hands they fold perfectly when they’re in mine
You give me gifts and treasures
That I will hold in my heart forever

Oh, my little adventurer
Won’t you settle down and lie with me 
Share your thoughts and your secrecy
Oh, my little adventurer

When you left to move to the coastline
You left a gaping hole on my insides
I’m sure in a little while I’ll be alright
But right now I’m facing the realities of life

Oh, my little adventurer
Won’t you come home and sit with me
Drink this tea, oh I’m so lonely
Oh, my little adventurer

Hollow Bones

You started out a solemn soul
Eyes of sterling and wings of gold
Hollow bones filled with hope
Help to take you where you want to go

So you packed up all your things and went
But weight accompanies time well spent
The hollow spaces you once knew
Became heavy as you grew and grew

A burden it is to travel light
Not on the body, but on the mind 
Let it down every once in a while
Come back home after mile after mile

Fill your books with 
Pressed plants and poetry
Empty your heart of the things that you’ve seen 

But don’t let me keep you
I know you have soaring to do
Just please don’t let go of me
Through all of the things that you see
I always knew you would leave
Right now I’m just trying to find peace
Just promise you will stay true
But do not let me keep you

Just promise you will return 
And tell of all the things you’ve learned 
But don’t let me keep you
I don’t know what I’ll do