I woke up this morning
Needing to know if you’re alive
I keep having dreams about us
The acid uncertainty of you and I
You make me feel so proud of myself
I don’t think you understand
I’ve never felt more real than when
You said you wanna hold my hand
You see, you talk to me about chemistry
And I make sure to look like I’m listening
But I love you I love you I love you
is the only thing that I’m whispering
Praying hard that you don’t hear me
Praying harder that you do
Oh please oh please don’t tell me
That she’s your someone new
My eyes sting from the ash
Left behind by your destruction
But the thing is, I was the bomb
That shook you down to your foundation
I look you in the eyes
Stained glass windows shattered into shards
This love used to be a home
Before it was a scattered house of cards
They remind me of the sky, your eyes
Right before it starts to break
They remind me of the day
When we left it up to fate
You said to look at me was fire
To be without me was to freeze
It’s hard to know if you love someone
When your arms are growing weak, please
I think I’d give almost anything
To wake up next to you again
Your warm hands on my cold shoulders
The sweetest way I know to begin
But the truth is you are leaving
Leaving behind a version of yourself
For me to hold and to remember
And finally, to put onto a shelf
I don’t know if it was worth it
Mistakes are things you should regret
But I know I’ll always remember
The day you chose to forget