Author: Hannah Stokes

The way things are, the way things were
They don’t agree and that’s where it hurts
Long lost songs from voices with empty lungs
Melodies so sweet, never to be sung

Youth stained love will fall away
The things we share no longer permeate
The old dreams that we held at night
That never seem to take flight

But Here and now
Is all life has to give
Dwelling on the past
Wont teach me how to live
I’ll never learn how to live

I praise the sky as I curse my own breath
A sojourner gasping for rest
But in the end
what will I hang on to

Here and now
Is all I’ll ever be
I’m breathing

But these fears of mine
Take a hold of me
They won’t let go

But here and now
Is all life has to give
Dwelling on the past
Won’t teach me how to live

Will I ever learn how to live

Time is moving faster everyday
And scientifically it will stay that way
But I will make the most that I can
Out of these moments here you’re holding my hand

Time is never on my side
My memories slip out of my mind
But I never have to wonder my life’s worth
Cause you prove that I became something after birth

When I look back at my life I can say
That every moment with you out of every day
Meant more than dust and empty breaths just seeping out of my chest
Our treasures here will never fade away

There is an anxiety consuming the dreams placed inside of me
I’ve never truly learned how to turn away
But the beauty here surrounding me awakens a security
That those deep brown eyes will cherish all my days

When I look back at my life I can say
That every moment with you out of every day
Meant more than dust and empty breaths just seeping out of my chest
Our treasures here will never fade away

Golden streams of little things you know they mean so much to me
Lady Time will never make us pay
For all the tears and silly fears you’ve wiped them all away my dear
From now until the years that we turn grey

After all this time you still look at me this way
Now I wonder why I wondered if you’d stay

A broken bottle shatters
And my lungs, they can relate
My breathing falls to pieces
Under sore and sobbing weight

I’ve tried to put the knife down 
Please believe me when I say
But my skin is slipping at the stitches
My knees are starting to give way

I am made of fragile substance 
Nests of wasps and flowers hung
So be gentle when you hold me
‘Tween life and lover I am strung

The lust of life consumes me
Every moment every breath
These marble mountains grow upon me
On my arms and in my chest
The phrase “I don’t owe you anything”
Dances in my head

I am made of fragile substance 
Nests of wasps and flowers hung
So be gentle when you hold me
‘Tween life and lover I am strung 

I am made of fragile substance 
A tattered spirit broken song
So be careful when you touch me
‘Tween life and lover I am strung

And I never meant to hurt you
I only meant to care
But when neither life or love believes you
Every thought becomes a prayer

And I’m afraid a fear of living
Is a life or death affair

I was told that if I said
The right words that are in my head
I would be held and home
Never to let go 

But the words I find are undefined
I don’t know how to make them mine
If only I could write my own
Reach inside my soul

The songs I write are out of time
My tongue has fallen out of line
I knit my thoughts into a broken cloth
Never to be sold

To think to feel is what makes us real
But to share in words is the letters seal
I don’t belong in this open book 
Forever I am closed

Now I have 
spoken words that are not mine
I’ve taken the mind to take and take time
But one day soon I will make myself home
In the light of the love that I’ve found and I’ve grown
Oh love of my life this light I have know
Love of this light shows the way home

I thought I was climbing this mountain right
But now I’m rolling down the other side
My body is an anchor as my fears take flight
I never thought you’d love me, I guess I was right 

Over and over I’ve walked this hike
But you stand at the top and look at me like
Once I reach your level you’ll push me back down
But still I have hope for tomorrow when I hit the ground 

This mountain’s height towers far above 
It will eclipse my heart and hide the one I love
My eyes are bound to you my mourning dove
But you turn me away when push comes to shove 

Yesterday I missed you, so I called your phone
But quickly I deciphered that no one was home 
Now it’s been a week, I guess you’re still gone
I never knew somebody could “lose their phone” for so long

This mountain’s hight towers far above
But you turn me away when push comes to shove

Now I can see that you’re no good for me

Let down after let down, you’ve blurred my sight
But now I’ve found my mountain and I’ve claimed this height

I have never seen 
hands that hold so gently 
Features doused in light
My eyes catch fire when lips collide 

The safety of your smile is a song 
That I wouldn’t mind spending my whole life singing along to
And those doe eyes never say goodbye
Cause in my mind these stars are just now starting to fill my sky

Oh, my little adventurer
Won’t you come home and dance with me 
Share your thoughts and your secrecy
Oh, my little adventurer

Your soft brown hair only makes me stare sometimes
Your hands they fold perfectly when they’re in mine
You give me gifts and treasures
That I will hold in my heart forever

Oh, my little adventurer
Won’t you settle down and lie with me 
Share your thoughts and your secrecy
Oh, my little adventurer

When you left to move to the coastline
You left a gaping hole on my insides
I’m sure in a little while I’ll be alright
But right now I’m facing the realities of life

Oh, my little adventurer
Won’t you come home and sit with me
Drink this tea, oh I’m so lonely
Oh, my little adventurer