Mother, mother, it’s been a while,
But I’m coming home
Mother, mother, when I come home
I’m coming alone
And I’m aware that when you saw me last
You saw me clinging dearly to my past
But no more
Earth and seed, they marry
In the spring I watch them grow
But my heart drowns with the rain fall
When it breaks, it breaks slow
And I’m aware that these things take time
But I can’t get that man off my goddamned mind, oh!
I have been so lost and yet I wander still
With grace as my crutch, with song my lungs are filled, oh!
If circles and circles I run,
I will still be running home to you
And if miles and miles I come,
Take one look back and just see who I was
Egypt has held me long,
But Zion has held me longer
If you don’t think I will come
Just take one look back and see who I was
The way things are, the way things were
They don’t agree and that’s where it hurts
Long lost songs from voices with empty lungs
Melodies so sweet, never to be sung
Youth stained love will fall away
The things we share no longer permeate
The old dreams that we held at night
That never seem to take flight
But Here and now
Is all life has to give
Dwelling on the past
Wont teach me how to live
I’ll never learn how to live
I praise the sky as I curse my own breath
A sojourner gasping for rest
But in the end
what will I hang on to
Here and now
Is all I’ll ever be
I’m breathing
But these fears of mine
Take a hold of me
They won’t let go
But here and now
Is all life has to give
Dwelling on the past
Won’t teach me how to live
Will I ever learn how to live
Time is moving faster everyday And scientifically it will stay that way But I will make the most that I can Out of these moments here you’re holding my hand
Time is never on my side My memories slip out of my mind But I never have to wonder my life’s worth Cause you prove that I became something after birth
When I look back at my life I can say That every moment with you out of every day Meant more than dust and empty breaths just seeping out of my chest Our treasures here will never fade away
There is an anxiety consuming the dreams placed inside of me I’ve never truly learned how to turn away But the beauty here surrounding me awakens a security That those deep brown eyes will cherish all my days
When I look back at my life I can say That every moment with you out of every day Meant more than dust and empty breaths just seeping out of my chest Our treasures here will never fade away
Golden streams of little things you know they mean so much to me Lady Time will never make us pay For all the tears and silly fears you’ve wiped them all away my dear From now until the years that we turn grey
After all this time you still look at me this way Now I wonder why I wondered if you’d stay
A broken bottle shatters And my lungs, they can relate My breathing falls to pieces Under sore and sobbing weight
I’ve tried to put the knife down Please believe me when I say But my skin is slipping at the stitches My knees are starting to give way
I am made of fragile substance Nests of wasps and flowers hung So be gentle when you hold me ‘Tween life and lover I am strung
The lust of life consumes me Every moment every breath These marble mountains grow upon me On my arms and in my chest The phrase “I don’t owe you anything” Dances in my head
I am made of fragile substance Nests of wasps and flowers hung So be gentle when you hold me ‘Tween life and lover I am strung
I am made of fragile substance A tattered spirit broken song So be careful when you touch me ‘Tween life and lover I am strung
And I never meant to hurt you I only meant to care But when neither life or love believes you Every thought becomes a prayer
And I’m afraid a fear of living Is a life or death affair
I was told that if I said The right words that are in my head I would be held and home Never to let go
But the words I find are undefined I don’t know how to make them mine If only I could write my own Reach inside my soul
The songs I write are out of time My tongue has fallen out of line I knit my thoughts into a broken cloth Never to be sold
To think to feel is what makes us real But to share in words is the letters seal I don’t belong in this open book Forever I am closed
Now I have spoken words that are not mine I’ve taken the mind to take and take time But one day soon I will make myself home In the light of the love that I’ve found and I’ve grown Oh love of my life this light I have know Love of this light shows the way home
I thought I was climbing this mountain right But now I’m rolling down the other side My body is an anchor as my fears take flight I never thought you’d love me, I guess I was right
Over and over I’ve walked this hike But you stand at the top and look at me like Once I reach your level you’ll push me back down But still I have hope for tomorrow when I hit the ground
This mountain’s height towers far above It will eclipse my heart and hide the one I love My eyes are bound to you my mourning dove But you turn me away when push comes to shove
Yesterday I missed you, so I called your phone But quickly I deciphered that no one was home Now it’s been a week, I guess you’re still gone I never knew somebody could “lose their phone” for so long
This mountain’s hight towers far above But you turn me away when push comes to shove
Now I can see that you’re no good for me
Let down after let down, you’ve blurred my sight But now I’ve found my mountain and I’ve claimed this height
